I'm taking this from Skye who took it from Claire so here I am, because I love them both to pieces.

First thing you did this morning: Groaned about how I'd gone to sleep past 2 a.m. (had to wake up at 10 for meeting with Latin teacher)

2. Last thing you ate: Hershey's Almond chocolate ice cream SCOREYESH

3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap? Sportula? Oh yes. I think Cingular is sending me a replacement one. Because it just really blows. It is more wacked out than me. Poor Sportula.

4. What's the thing you look forward to most in the next 6 months? LONDON. In December, for the new year. Wow, that's going to be fantastic. And school, because I really wanna go back.

5. What's annoying you right now? The fact that I skipped my nightly run tonigh

6. Whats the last movie you watched? Whole Nine Yards.

7. Do you believe in long distance relationships? I'd hate to have to resort to it, because I miss people easily. If I care about them, I mean. Wow, mean, or not.

8. What's worse...being in love with someone you can't have or pretending to love someone you don't? Haha, the former, people. Trust me. Like Claire said, you have a CHOICE with the latter. With the former, it's just BAM, that's who it is, deal with it. You can't choose. And if you could, I'd be first in line, I swear. 

9. Is there someone you miss so much it makes you sad? Many people. Well, not so much as many as a few. Haha wow nonsense.

10. What inspires you? Music (yeah, yeah, cheesy, whatever, but it does). But most of all? People.

11. If you could put together a concert of 8 bands, who would you choose? BECK. The White Stripes. Coldplay. Ima Robot. The Futureheads. Eels. Arcade Fire. Green Day.

12. Lyric that sums up your love life? Oh, this is fun! Not that it can really sum it up but...long answer! First: "I'm thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned, and I had to speculate that God himself did make us into corresponding shapes like puzzle pieces from the clay." And then all of Jack-Ass by Beck (excerpt: "I've been drifting along in the same stale old shoes. Lose ends tying a noose in the back of my mind. If you thought that you were making your way to where the puzzles and Pagans lay...put it together: it's a strange invitation." That song is so, so fantastic)

13. Whats the one thing you wish you could do better? Be confident. I shrink back sometimes. Which is why I end up on the sidelines sometimes.

14. If you could be anywhere this second, where would it be? That brigde on Tom Sawyer island in Disneyland. Christ on a bike, I don't know why.

15. What's your most vivid memory from 6th grade? Arguing with Steven (basically my only mutual crush ever) about how he'd left a footprint on a page of my essay by stepping on it when it fell on the floor.

16. Latest addiction? Gum. Cough drops. 

17. Have you ever had the slight urge to kill someone? No. But I have wanted to hit many people, for many different reasons.

18. How many people would you say you were interested in at once? Two. Didn't like either of them much. I only ever like one person at a time, but that was in 8th grade, when I was just...really fucking hurt? Yes.

19. Who are you in love with? My mother. There is no doubt I love her more than I have loved anyone. Ever. And I am also in love with Beck and ranae and stuff.

20. Do you think someone thinks about you daily? I tell myself that. I'd prefer not to have it confirmed. Maybe. I dunno, it's a very sort of ambiguously intimate thing, when someone thinks about you. You don't now it, but they are, and it's still very meaningful.

21. Are you self confident? Overconfident with writing, even though half the time I sort of fuck up. Confident with knowing I like being this person and I don't want to change for anyone. Don't show such confidence. Conundrum!

22. What would you change about yourself? *shrug* Body. But hell, at least I don't look like everyone else.

23. What book are you reading right now? Grapes of Wrath. Still haven't finished because I suck. 

24. How many people do you know with the same name as yours? No one!

25. What was the last thing you spilled? Haha Skye and I "spilled" her pizza's onto Taylor's CD stack today. But we cleaned up so yay for us.

Bye, all. ~8) 

Currently Listening Midnite Vultures By Beck see related

- Nicotine & Gravy, Mixed Bizness, Beautiful Way, Debra (falsetto = awesome)

I hit 40! I am like a deranged middle-aged woman, cheering about "hitting 40." Well, I am doing some damn fine cheering, because I hit Lesson 40 (XL) in my Latin book. From here on, the lessons are all either vocab or grammar review, and I probably don't have to do more than this, because this is as far as the Latin 2 class went during the year. Cha.

Got a new Beck CD. It is ROX, surprise surprise.

I'm feeling content and smiley. Everything is going great, in my stable bliss of mediocrity. Nothing is more than I expect it to be. Which leaves no room for disappointment, which to me feels pretty damn good.

Stuck within the bounds of a castle that I could very well leave but I choose to sit inside of instead, waving my hand out and hoping someone will see it and take it in their own hand and pull me out of the castle. The definition of my summer, and thus, the picture.

Hee. ~8)

Currently Listening Dear Catastrophe Waitress By Belle & Sebastian see related

- Lord Anthony, You Don't Send Me, If You Find Yourself Caught In Love, I'm A Cuckoo

So I was in a funk all week, for a number of reasons. They were actually not all entirely stupid, so I've got at least that much to say for myself. However, I think I'm getting over it by now. It's quite frustrating to cry every day of a week, so I'll stop.

I left a comment on Skye's livejournal the other day that included this: "Everything is really ____ right now." Which of course is read "everything is really blank right now." Which is sort of how everything is, really.

Anyway, today I'm better. And I think I will be better. I wrote this in my livejournal today, and I liked it:

I wish this August could be like last August, when all I did was watch the Olympics in awe and think how peculiar it is that the next time we'll be hearing news about the Olympics, we'll be out of Prep and getting ready to go to college. Spatter spatter in different directions.

I wish that we all lived in a series of countrysides with small dirt roads, so that I could just run outside and see fields and hills. And then I could jump on my bike and ride around, on and on and on throughout the day, visiting everyone that I miss so much, and those who I just miss, and maybe even those who I think of here and there and wonder, "Hey, what are they up to?" And then maybe some people would join me, and we would be a bicycle caravan rolling through the rolling hills looking at turtles on the road and sunburning the hell out of ourselves.\k <--that's the work of my bird Bird, stepping onto the keyboard. I wasn't going to add anything else, but since he took it upon himself to write it, I'll keep it. ~8)

All of a sudden, right now, I feel like crying.

I've been looking at MySpace (Kristy's, actually), LiveJournal (Linda's), and writing an e-mail about Harry Potter. I've wasted my day, I've wasted my week, I've wasted most of my summer. I want to go back to school, something no one else seems to agree with me on. I want to keep the light and easy attitude that I have most of the day, except when I get the small panic attacks I get right now. God, they are over nothing. Absolutely nothing.

I just feel sad tonight. About a lot of things. No, not just that, God, that's a constant, a given, I'm almost ALWAYS sad about that lately, when I think about it, because cha, let's face it, it sucks and that won't change for a while. No, it's more tonight. I don't really even want to think about it right now, so it's sort of ludicrous that I'm updating.

Peculiarly enough, "Something There" from Beauty and the Beast is stuck in my head, and I'm smiling anyway. ~8'